save me from myself.

don't you think that i want to be happy? i'm so fucking miserable. i'm dying inside and i don't know why, i don't know how to fix it. i need you and either you don't care or you're too self absorbed to notice. don't i matter? because it really doesn't seem like it. you were so good to me before, what happened? what have i done wrong? i feel so worthless. you make me feel worthless. we can't even hold a fucking conversation anymore. i want to be your best friend, i want to be your everything. why can't i be your world? I WANT TO MATTER. fuck. stop hiding me. if you want me in your life SHOW ME. i want you to love me like you've never loved anyone. i want to matter. i want to matter. i want to matter. i want to matter. i. want. to. matter...

How I Feel.

R.I.P. to a legend

thinking of you.

We've Lost Another One

Sweet Dreams and Rest In Peace.

Always Down

Too much pressure, pushing her. Left, right,
down, up. Back down, always down. She reaches
but she can't get to the top, she can never get to the top.
She needs air, there is no air.
There is never enough air.
There is nothing to say,
she screams.
It's a horrific scream, a horrific dream.
No, it's not a dream. Her reality is worse than
anything she has ever dreamed.
She watches everything crumble before her eyes.
With her touch, comes fire. It's burning.
It's all burning. The flames grow, the reflection bright
in her blank eyes. She is surrounded, this is
nothing new. Her soul is drained, she won't struggle.
There is nothing left to fight for. She won't scream.
She has lost all control.
She goes down. Always Down.

You Can't Forget It.

So I guess I've finally realized that I can't erase you. No matter how hard I try you're not going to just disappear. I want to burn the pictures but I know it makes no difference, I can get rid of them but the memories won't go away that easily.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it at all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us